Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it

In our house we celebrate half birthdays…well only K’s half birthday. Some find it silly, some find it over the top, some find it wonderful.

I’m somewhere between the three.

We began two years ago when she “turned” six and a half.  My father had been in the hospital for almost two weeks, and a week before the “birthday” he had been moved to the ICU. In a week that was filled with hope then sorrow, happiness then sadness, and shock followed by emptiness, we had to find a little bit of joy.

K came home from ballet to a half cake and was surprised.  The smile across her face seemed to make everything else melt away for a few minutes.

The next day became the hardest day of my life. We said goodbye to the most thoughtful, loving, special man I’ve known.

A year later, similar feelings began creeping up again—happiness then sadness, shock followed by emptiness—and a little bit of light (and sugar) was found by celebrating K’s half birthday again.

Now two years later, and it still seems unbelievable. Another cake has been baked, the icing has been made, and a few tears have been shed (so far). Something that seems frivolous and a bit much, manages to bring a little bit of laughter, joy and distraction during a tough time.

After looking at the calendar and seeing “Miss You Papa” on tomorrow’s date, K turned to me and said this morning “I love today! I wish Papa was here for cake too.” Then she turns to the empty chair beside her and said “Oh, there you are, do you want a bite, Papa?” Breaks my heart and makes me smile at the same time.

Celebrate the little things.


American Buttercream
Recipe from Chelsweets

  • 2 cups unsalted butter, room temperature
  • 8 cups powdered sugar
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 2 tablespoons heavy cream
  • 3 teaspoons  vanilla

Beat the butter on a medium speed for 30 seconds with a paddle attachment, until smooth. Slowly add in the powdered sugar, 1 cup at a time. Alternate with small splashes of cream. Once fully mixed, add in the vanilla and salt, and beat on medium low until the ingredients are fully incorporated, and the desired consistency is reached. If the frosting is too thick, add in cream (1 teaspoon at a time). If the frosting is too thin, add in more powdered sugar (quarter of a cup at a time).

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